Existing…

I have been in a place that I’ve been having a hard time trying to describe as of late; Some would call it writers block, if I were a writer, but it is bigger than this. what I do know is it’s not my faith… no matter what I go through in life; how many tribulations and trials I’ve weathered, faith is the one thing I can honestly say remains. The unmistakable knowingness of this too will pass. That the Universe and the great Creator has a unique plan for me and that all will be well and it has.

Here’s the thing. I’m also a huge believer in that our Universe answers those things we manifest; whether positive, negative, or neutral in our thoughts, desires, actions, or our abilities to manifest those things we truly want for our highest good.

The thing is; is where my issue lies as of the current. I know that in order to have the Universe fulfill these desired goals; they need to be clear, specific, and detailed. Believe… and Receive..

I cannot seem to cohesively harness my dream, my desire, my goal.

I know my life’s plan. I know that I am here to help spread unconditional love to the people I come in contact with. I am also here to help through the spreading of unconditional love, usher our world forward. I am a Spiritual Minister; a Empath, a Reiki practitioner, and Teacher, I am also a learning Shaman. And so much more… I go and study and learn where and what God leads me, and blesses for me and I will continue to do so. ( Faith led)

Not being able to describe in detail my inner goals and truest desires to help manifest my highest good to the Universe leaves me feeling like i’m just… I don’t know? How can I have the Universe bless me, if it doesn’t know what it is that I want, because I don’t even know? When I am consulting, or counseling with other human hearts, this is one of the main steps I help them lock down. How our minds are always at work, and how to make sure their working in our best interest by thinking positively. The Universe is always listening wanting to give you the best, but it gives you what you ask for, what you put out, is what you get back. I know these things.

Hence I’m so cognizant of this fact that I am left in this neutral phase, due to not being able to describe what it is I truly want.

I am existing!

Has anyone experienced this before?

Does anyone have any advice, or thoughts about how to get through this, or what it’s about?

#LOVEANDLIGHTUNITE

From my heart to yours V.

WORD PRESSERS UNITE!

Having a heck of a day. First off, I am tossing around in my head if the word is ” pressers, or pressors, ) ha, ha never mind ,autocorrect strikes again. Lol. So anywho… the real conundrum

Does anyone know how hem a dress without sewing it… and ha,ha,ha, taking it in for alterations? It’s about 2in. Too long, it’s a black formal gown slip gown, with the black chiffon esk slip over lay? Help, have to wear it tomorrow? All diy ideas are welcome?

JAC

Three pounds twelve ounces at twenty- seven weeks

Is how you entered this world, being cut from within me

So fragile, so small, hooked to all sorts of wires and I.V’s

They flew you out that very day explaining

They delivered you, to save me

I was not worried. I did not cry.

I touched your hand and said goodbye.

I had a knowledge you’d be okay

Because you fought so hard to stay alive that day

Fast forward throughout these years, almost twenty-two

Every one of your greatest achievements

Each great mistake too

JAC. MY THIRD BORN, LET ME SAY.

There’s always, always going to be a fork in the road

In life, you must choose a path, you can’t simply fold

You’re created to change this world don’t let prison define you

Your body is behind the bars, not your mind, don’t let them confine you.

From my heart to yours

V.

DO YOU SEE WHAT I SEE?

Trump says deal reached to temporarily end shutdown
https://news.yahoo.com/talks-start-senate-rejects-2-plans-ending-shutdown-050859088–politics.html

So I was watching this probably like most of us, and spirit said look closer… spirit grabbed ahold of my right hand and pointed it at the upper right corner of the screen. I was already confused about how there seemed to be a watery vortex illususiony image in the doorway behind the Pres. But then once spirit started interacting with me about the watery image, I said well??? I watched it about four times and I still have the faintest idea of what I have witnessed, but I know that I’ve witnessed something. There was some heavy energy exchange going on. Any ideas?

DO NOT BE DETERRED

As I sit in my car smoking my Newport cigarette to the butt; I am also deep in my head, which isn’t unusual. My thoughts shift from topic to topic and it takes me some discipline to hone in on a specific issue, if need be, usually I just go with the flow, I’m kind of a self proclaimed ” black hippie ” that way; I dance to the beats in my head ( they’re typically playing simultaneously with my 10 other topics randomly going on, bahahaha, but I got this) I go where spirit leads. It’s fricking beautiful…

ANYHOW

As I continued my dissention into my oh so public dirty bad habit of what I like to now call ” barely nowhere left to smoke these days, even outdoors, WTF…” I am suddenly engulfed by inspiration and it came by way of all of you.

I got to thinking about how I enjoy wordpress. I also started thinking about the state of our world. Then I thought of my personal journey as far as awareness and spirituality are concerned. I thought of where I began and where I am currently; I admit I even daydreamed a bit about where I’d like to be in the near future, how my blog may influence a life. I thought about how reading a seemingly simple poetry blog; really isn’t simple at all. It holds power, positivity to change lives and influence people for the better, just as I seek to do.

I thought about how we are all from different walks of life, having different life experiences; everyone’s growing into their own beliefs and belief systems, whether religious, spiritual and religious, agnosticism, atheism, occult, etc. The point is it’s all happening at right now! This very moment, but we’re on our own levels/ frequency. None better, or worse, just vibrating different.

Then I thought of our one commonality; although I’m sure there’s plenty more, love…

This is what I get from this blog. Unfiltered light and love. No matter where we come from. What we believe. I think we ultimately want the best for our world and the people in it.

That keeps me reading!

From my heart to yours.

V.