The Pledge

I never seem to find the right words to say

I do crazy things that only push you away

I don’t cook

I don’t clean

I barely get dressed

But expect crazy passion, although I’m a mess

So… On this day .

I Pledge to do

To choose my words better

When speaking to you

To hold you so closely

And not let you forget

That the right touch from you

Dissolves all my regret

I’ll uphold every vow

That I spoke unto you

To respect

And to love

As you deserve me to do

This Pledge that I give

Comes deep from the heart

I’ll treasure and honor you

Until death do us part

12/25/2008

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CHOICES

Seclusion, confusion

How’d we get here

Isolated, frustrated

I feel the end, so near

Choices versus the voices

That play on in my head

Controlled and stronghold

Makes for words, not to be said

How do we change

His delusions, my derange

CHOICES

Take them, make them

For what they’re worth

Misuse them, abuse them

We’re both left in the dirt

10/5/11

V.

IS PAIN LOVE?

When truths won’t be heard

And lies plant their seed

When spoken words hurt

And anger needs to feed

When the hurt is forever present

And the past won’t stay down

Is love less than pain

Has shame worn me down

Can I be a new me

With these deep scars that bleed fresh

Do I leave- so he can breathe

Or stay and fight through this mess

Do I have a right to say

I won’t take this from you

When your eyes expose your brokenness

And I know I caused this too

09/16/11

V.

PONDER

Alone in my thoughts

Too much raw emotion to manage

Just reflecting the things I’ve done

Lies, betrayal, just plain damage

When life threw me lemons

No juice was made

Mine soured

Now wounded ego’s baracade

All the good we devoured

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THE NEGATIVE

Not one more word

I very well could explode

One more regret, I’m ready, get set

Guns blazing, unlock and reload

The disrespect we spit

Is now common place

No more trust

My love we’ve bust

This past year’s

Been a total disgrace

There is no shame, in where we began

Only in what we have become

Missing the day’s when you were my friend

My heart still thinks you’re the one

07/09/14

V.

MY BODY’S NOT MY OWN

Caught somewhere, between pain and tears

My tongue spews venom

My lips shutter to hear

My eyes have betrayed me

They’ve let you see inside my soul

My ears hear what they choose

Spinning my mind out of control

No rhyme

No reason

Just a slew of I don’t knows

Improper handling of my heart

Your agendas now become exposed

Tell me how you sleep at night

Ripping at my scars of pain

There are no winners in this fight

But is it a chance love can remain?

01/22/14

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